When progress meets procrastination

Ooofta. I wish I had a cool story or event that has me on a 4+ week pause of creating content here and on my podcast. But I don't. I have been feeling on the cusp of something for many weeks now....an older, less healed version of me would have toppled back to comfort immediately. This newer, healing and growth seeking version has been straddling the mountain with one foot in comfort and old ways and the other in the abyss of "what if?" It's exhausting and scary and exciting and exhilarating! And so I've been frozen in place. Lots of ideas rattling around that just get stuck there bouncing in my head. The thought of picking up a mic to record or my laptop to write feels super overwhelming. Maybe this sounds familiar to you? I see you, I believe in you and despite social media or society giving out different timelines to be successful I want you to know that your timing is just as it should be.......yes even when you've felt stuck and like giving up.

There is this belief floating in my head and heart that says I can change my mind. I can pivot. I can decide what I thought I wanted isn't aligned any longer. Being a recovering people pleaser means that this very thought is categorized as a bad thing, a selfish thing. Something that isn't for me, it's for other people whom are "good" or "successful" or otherwise deserving. Sound familiar?

Here is how I've been working to rewire my brain:

STOP. Take a deep breathe - in through your nose and out through your mouth. Good, again. Rewind. We can't un-think that thought but we sure as hell can rewind to where it snuck in and ask ourselves - why do I feel like I don't deserve (insert whatever you were working or dreaming on)? Got it? Good. Now - Reframe. Let's spin this to our higher, future selves and create and affirmation to come back to whenever these feelings of stuck or less than arise. Say it with me - "I am deserving of success." "I am capable of making my dreams come true." " I am open to abundance and I accept it into my life." "I am wildly successful and am able to give back to others generously."

How do you feel? I know saying those words aloud confirm my purpose and I feel strong and exhilarated. Maybe you felt that too or maybe it's still a bit woo-woo for you. That's ok. Just having these around you and seeing them daily can help slowly shift your mindset. Write them on the bathroom mirror or on a sticky note and place where you will see them daily.

This is where progress meets procrastination. In the way we talk to ourselves. In the core beliefs we hold. Learning to be open to different ways to heal and grow has been the best thing I've done in my journey to date. Not everything I try is for me but what I learn about myself from the trial and error - worth it, every time.

What is your favorite practice in your growth & self discovery journey?

xoxoxooxox Sarah